Every day I find myself whispering "be patient" to myself in the two seconds that I am not freaking out over not having a job... or even an interview... or even a call back.
I'm telling myself not to panic. Not to send my resume all over the country. To just stay put in this little city I am falling in love with and have faith that I will be able to find a job around here.
I was not prepared for this part.
I pride myself on being prepared.
I know this could be an adventure. I could go ahead and send my resume into the wind and interview in places I never imagined living. We could pick up and move to a reservation or a rural town. The man says he'll live wherever... for a little while.
But I don't want to.
It's not that I'm not adventurous. It's not that I'm not a risk taker.
It is that I'm tired of moving. Tired of starting over.
I want to settle down. I need health insurance and access to advanced medical treatments. I want to come home to a furnished house with furniture I picked out and art on the walls. I want to build community without the "we'll be leaving soon" detachment mechanisms.
I've earned a break from adventure and risk taking and starting over and even excitement for a while. I've walked confidently/scarily into life changing opportunities, and grown from it.
But I'm sitting down now...
Because there is beauty and honor and challenges and growth and happiness in the stillness, too.
5 comments:
that's one of the biggest things i think about when considering midwifery. i don't like the idea of having to pick up and move somewhere strange (and that i wasn't interested in moving to in the first place). i want to leave where i am anyway, but i wouldn't know where to go if i were a midwife. good luck to you! i bet this is stressful.
I thought I wouldn't be able to find a job after I graduated, without moving. I had accepted a position in another state, when I found my current job. Once I was offered the position, I backed out of the one in another state. I was totally willing to move (as was my family) because there was no way I was going to have completed all that education to not do what I was in love with. It took 6 months but it happened. If you really prefer to stay where you are then be patient and persistent. Apply for every WHNP job in the hopes that they will consider a midwife instead. Send your resume to every doctor's office in the area. Network with the local ACNM chapter and midwives. Good luck!
Congrats on graduating!! I hope a position comes up for you soon. :)
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