First Day of GYN Clinical

I survived it. It was so weird. I got emotional, thinking, "this is it...this is what I came here for...I can't believe it." It made clinical feel like make-believe...a dream I was going to wake up from at any moment. This isn't me standing here in this lab coat (we have to wear it) with this speculum in my hand explaining to this 18 year-old girl that her discharge is normal. Can't be me who just found a lump (benign- "always been there" per patient, + preceptor verified it wasn't really a "lump," but great job feeling it!) on size G (yes, G) breasts on my first breast exam. Who found the cervix all by herself on her second patient of the day. And all of this on a day that was supposed to only be "observational."

Today was one of those days that made me realize all over again that there are certainly things we are meant to do in this life, and if you are lucky enough/work hard enough you might actually find yourself doing that very thing you were meant to do at that specific time.

I wish this for everybody because it feels so. damn. good.