GYN Final Exam

Usually I go through and mark the questions I don't know the answer to.

Today I marked the questions that I did know the answers to.

17.

Out of 58.

There was a massive vent session after the exam, which I did not participate in because I just didn't have the energy. I did look my questions though, which I don't always do after exams because it drives me crazy, but after a while I stopped looking them up because the answers were all wrong by some minor point. The general consensus is "well they can't fail everybody" but I don't trust my classmates. They always say this and then ace the damn exams. Right now I am venting because I have to get it out so that I can switch gears and study for Stats tomorrow...especially since I failed the last exam...after everyone swore they did so poorly and pulled in 100s, thereby fucking up the curve. After yesterday's questionable Primary Care exam, and today's joke of a GYN exam, I am stressed beyond words. I just wanna get it over with so I can hug the man, cook a good meal, and go to sleep.

1 more day.

1/2 Way...

through finals week.

2 down, 2 to go.

Patho yesterday was ok.

Primary Care today was scary.

GYN tomorrow is...is just...overwhelming? That doesn't seem to do it justice. I can. not. believe. how much material we've covered over this last semester...and now I have to take a test on all of it?

I dunno.

*sigh*

It's That Time Again

Finals are here, and I'm stressin, just a lil bit.

Deep breathing isn't really helping...but I guess it could be worse. I had my first ever panic attack last year, in nursing school. It was textbook; my heart was beating out of my chest, I couldn't breathe, my chest was hurting...I thought I was having a heart attack and that I was really going to die...shaking/trembling and feeling like I was going to faint. Yeah. It was bad. It was the day I received the "you're not cut out for nursing school" letter, which happened to be the night before a huge exam. That was my first and only attack, and really it has kept me from getting as stressed as I used to get about these exams because nursing school is not going to kill me. Nu uhn. I'm not having it.

I missed out on 4 hours of studying today because I had to take the shift of someone who had a final today. I usually get to study at work, but for some reason they gave me 3 hours and 20mins worth of work today. I could not believe it. Usually, when you are kind enough to fill in for someone...on a Saturday, they don't give you much to do and you can study. But not today. I wish I hadn't of taken this shift, but it's over in 15 blessed minutes. I have never had this much work to do at this job, it only takes me 45mins-1hr at the most. I'm working of my stress levels. It doesn't help that I have four finals this week, 3 of which are cumulative.

I will get through this week.

I will get through this week.

I will. Yes uh hun, I will.